Deadweight

The time, that I wasted here was so exhausting
I can’t scratch the surface
I’m losing all that I thought was real
Held down, by every time I felt disrespected
The weight takes its toll
You held my hand, to steal my soul
Drag me through your misery
Your trauma attached to my innocence
Bleed me dry with promises that one day it will be okay your way
But
Still the pain remains
Stagnated
Complacent
Draining all my nourishment
My torment I’m fading away
But it goes both ways
Now it’s time I get my fill
And make you feel like this is real
My hand clenched around your heart
A bleeding heart is worthless
Only on the surface
I squeeze but it runs dry
So tell me why
You feel
Nothing
Cheating lying
Constant screaming crying
You’re alone bitch die slow
Eating your eyes out
It’s your fault your blind now
I’m living to break you down
Every thing will feel like deadweight
It’s been a long time coming
Brief embrace I must erase
Serrated blade to close my case
I’ll bleed you out despite my fate
And send you to an early grave
Matter of fact
You don’t deserve this
Taking away your life would give you purpose
Breaking down all my thoughts of causing you harm
And build myself back up to prove that you were wrong
In time, I realized that you don’t control me
You couldn’t scratch the surface
I’m getting back what I knew was real
I’m high, on how it feels to be self respected
The weight takes its toll
It’s what I needed to make me whole