I Hate Myself

I woke up today, at least that much is true
I saw what people see
What a year this made of me
I tried a hundred times but each time I thought of you

I hate myself
I hate myself
I fucking hate myself

And I want days of pain
Oh, to feel the things I need
To pay off this shame
And I know that makes me broken
I know that makes me weak
I guess I'll put my armor back on now

I found the way but I turned around
One step to start but I'd rather fall down
Too much of a coward to just say I'm wrong
Too much of a coward to admit I need
Help me, please

And I want days of pain
Oh, to feel the things I need
To pay off this shame
And I know that makes me broken
I know that makes me weak
Will you help me put my armor back on now?

I hate myself
I hate myself
I fucking hate myself
I hate myself
I hate myself
I fucking hate myself

"Try to fix yourself," that's all they'd say to me
Tried to fix myself
Didn't know how hard it would be