Nothing Natural

Have you always known?
I'd never bring myself to say that you should go

There's nothing, nothing natural about the way this feels (the way this feels)
I never let (I never let these old wounds heal)
I feel it under my skin like a butterfly that's trapped within, trapped within
It ends before it begins in this chrysalis, I'm trapped within, trapped within

So this is how we fall apart
Our pieces never fit from the start
Trying to figure out what we are
Once I leave and I get in my car
When I go, baby, I'm going far
And I'm not looking back, no, I'm raising the bar
You're never home and your heart is ajar
Left broken by the sight of tail-lights on his car

'Cause you know wherever he goes, he's going far
From you and all you are (all you are)

There's nothing, nothing natural about the way this feels (the way this feels)
I never let (I never let these old wounds heal)
I feel it under my skin like a butterfly that's trapped within, trapped within
It ends before it begins in this chrysalis, I'm trapped within, trapped within

What do I do? And where do I go?
When my feet feel like they aren't my own
Nowhere to run or return to
Is it time I gave up on this dream of me and you?
All the butterflies behind my eyes are just waiting for me to die
All to colonize my skeleton in time
And make a home from the bones where my body lies

'Cause you know wherever he goes, he's going far
From you and all you are, all you are, oh

There's nothing, nothing natural about the way this feels (the way this feels)
I never let (I never let these old wounds heal)
I feel it under my skin like a butterfly that's trapped within, trapped within
It ends before it begins in this chrysalis, I'm trapped within, trapped within

I'm trapped within you