Growing Up (I Guess)

You never know how people see you
You try to act like you don't care
But as you're blowing out your candles
You can't ignore the fact that no one's there

The luck you lost is eating you alive
You never had the chance to say goodbye

'Cause I'm so sorry
I shouldn't be calling
I've had it up to here with loneliness
A table for just me
A one-sided story
Becomes the monster underneath my bed
That's growing up, I guess

The ghosts of friends, they haunt me daily
With every step and move I make
I wonder if they ever saw me
As more than just a 7-year mistake
Was I the only one who felt us break?

'Cause I'm so sorry
I shouldn't be calling
I've had it up to here with loneliness
A table for just me
A one-sided story
Becomes the monster underneath my bed
That's growing up, I guess

Why is everyone leaving me?
Is this what life's supposed to be
Hanging in and falling out of time
'Cause when I face these afternoons
And birthdays pass without balloons
The more I take the silence as a sign
That every photo taken was a lie

'Cause I'm so sorry
I shouldn't be calling
I've had it up to here with loneliness
A table for just me
A one-sided story
Becomes the monster underneath my bed
That's growing up, I guess
That's growing up, I guess
That's growing up, I guess