Again

I always thought that I
I was running after something; chasing a dream
But I keep stumbling, getting lost in the crowd on this narrow winding road

I know that I can't go back and it's not like I'm trying to 
I just want to gaze into that endless sky
I just wanna make you understand why I try
So please don't give me those eyes
Don't act like 
Like you're the victim

It doesn't matter how many tears you cry you
Can't buy forgiveness if you try to
I am lost in the maze of my sins but who am I waiting for?
I am like blank pages of a notebook
Wanna fill them all up but I don't know
How to face everything that I've been 
Running away from

It feels like I have been living a life that that I don't deserve to have and I just can't shake this feeling  
That things would be different if I could do it all again!
I can't play it safe no more! 
There's so much out there
There's so much to live for
We can leave that feeling in the past
(I'm on the way)
So when this is over
Maybe it'll be worth the pain!

I know the blame is mine
For all of your sadness I apologize
If I could turn back time, I'd erase all the scars I've made inside your mind

Everything I've done and everything that I'll do tomorrow
All done with time that's borrowed 
Please understand
I closed my eyes thinking I could hide from the fire
But it's still raging inside it's like I'm being burned alive

All the rumors, that are worthless
Which one of them was it that I heard first?
If you face each other then you'll be friends  
Why are you lying to me?
My hearts still burning on the inside
Keep fanning all the flames with your white lies
I don't know what I expected from this reality 

It feels like I have been living a life that 
That I don't deserve to have and I just can't shake this feeling  
That things would be different if I could do it all again!
I can't play it safe no more! 
I've always been grateful for all of your kindness
It's  what has kept me going
(I'm on the way)
I'll keep moving forward
Meeting friends and foes along the way!

How can we open the door to find the future we've been looking for?
No one can turn the pages back, not on the story we've spun; it's already begun
Open up your eyes 
Open up your eyes

There's so much out there
There's so much to live for
We can leave that feeling in the past

So we can start over
And finish everything we left undone
Shall we go AGAIN?

It feels like I have been living a life that 
That I don't deserve to have and I just can't shake this feeling  
That things would be different if I could do it all again!
I can't play it safe no more! 
I've always been grateful for all of your kindness
It's  what has kept me going
(I'm on the way)
So when this is over
I know that it'll be worth the pain!