Fire Starter

I've been singing for my supper
For so goddamn long
It's been ten years now
Sang my songs for kings and clowns
And I'm going home again
The summer's here fine
But I've been drinking all the time
And I'm going straight numb
Am I my mother's daughter?
Am I my father's daughter?
How much is just me?
Fame is just a tempting mistress
Alone in the night
I was a coward way back then
But now I'm here again
I tell you I won't give in
And I finally found the time
To look you squarely in the eyes
And tell you you're wrong too
Was I just weak and faltered?
A fool with a gambling problem?
How much were my dreams?
I can walk the sands of my life
All on my own
I know just what I did
And now I'm in my bed
Oh, I'm gonna lie in it
Quit my drinking wine
On stage they're crying in the lights
And praying on me
Am I a saintly martyr?
Or am I a fire starter?
Is it all inside of me?
Who knows just what they're supposed to be?
I was just guess the best of me