Dispirited

I'm sick of darkness
As the theme
Of every day
Feels like it's
Just a bad dream

I think I'm runnin
Outta ways to stay afloat
And these shadows keep
On tightening their grip
Around my throat

Choking, frantic
Tryna gasp for air
Screaming, but
No one's ever there

But me myself & I
And anything we left behind
Inside my thoughts and with
Whatever's left
Up in my mind

I'm so tired of all the
Nights I lay awake
Tryna figure out exactly
How much more that I can take

I'm sick of being
Stuck in this disheartened period
Every day waking up
Dispirited

I'm feeling dispirited
Wish I weren't so delimited
Demons they revisited
But fuck it still we in it

Thoughts they be thinning
Trauma has been imprinting
Fuck how you feeling
I wish this wasn't just the begining
Look at what that am bringing

This is that anthem for those with no souls
For those who never reach their goals
For those who fix their problem with a bowl
And big ass bong yuh

Wanna die, but to busy getting pie
I don't let it slide nah
Deal's denied, no you don't buy
Cuz I supply, yo

It is me on my own
Too toxic, finna die alone
Probably forever unknown
With a throne to be fucking disowned

I'm so tired of all the
Nights I lay awake
Tryna figure out exactly
How much more that I can take

I'm sick of being
Stuck in this disheartened period
Every day waking up
Dispirited