Up To You

I don't understand this world
I'm just a girl
At least I think I am
He play wit my pearl
I'm in his curls
We do the freakum dance
Everybody runnin way from sumn
That's jus how it be
Vices in my sinus an my lungs
An I'm still tryna grieve
I can't quite escape from the clutches of my hometown
How everybody know me
But I'm lonely in my home now
Been fightin fire wit more fire
Tired of the smoke cloud
Convo gettin drier ima liar and he know now
I just keep surviving
Guess Allah must got a plan for me
I just keep on writin
Cuz one day my seeds gon sample me
I got a lot of heavy shit
I've burned so many bridges
I got flames all in my footsteps
I'll let God be my witness
Ima blaze a trail
For the next gen to do this
Fuck a holy grail
We need goddamn revolution
I'm not perfect and the truth is
Ima burden and a nuisance
I can't blame you if you leave me
Cuz I'm hurtin and I'm stupid
Only 21, I'm one of one
Lil rough around the edges
And they show me love when I get done
Performin my whole set list
I'm an anomaly, hypocrisy
A walking contradiction
Only one of my personalities is battling addiction
They not gon get it
Got a vision
Can't be sure I'll see it through
I pray someday that you gon listen Realize change starts within you
We're all the same
But you can choose
What the fuck you wanna do
Life gon take away your youth
Will you live or will you lose?
Mm
Life's a bitch but I am too
The curse of men is we gon sin
But in the end it's up to you
Huh
And I think you sense the truth
We can't pretend we ain't subdued
In the end it's up to you
I don't understand this world
I'm just a girl
At least I think I am
He play wit my pearl
I'm in his curls
We do the freakum dance
Everybody runnin way from sumn
That's jus how it be
Vices in my sinus an my lungs
An I'm still tryna grieve
I only let him fill me up
Cuz maybe then I won't be empty
And I'm romancin these drugs
Cuz ain't no love left in the city
Lately I been fuckin stuck
I'm gettin numb to all the critiques
I jus pour another cup
Til I'm so drunk I've lost my memory
When they try to snuff your spark
It's gettin dark
But don't lose faith now
You a work of art and you a star
You ain't gon stay down
You know who you are
It's in your heart
It's what you're made of
We all play a part
Go build your ark
You know the way love
Life gon take away your youth
Will you live or will you lose
Life's a bitch but I am too
The curse of men is we gon sin
But in the end it's up to you
Huh
In the end it's up you
Life's a bitch but I am too
The curse of men is we gon sin
But in the end you get to choose
But in the end it's up to you yuh