Siphon

Scrape the floor of the tank to just get by
And you wouldn't believe me if I tried
So I go around and around and around in circles
Trying my hardest to not feel worthless
I'll make a promise and carry the burden knowing
You'll watch it fall through the palm of my hands

If all is going well
I'm not myself

I'm going through another breakdown, another reason to change
The things about me that you wanted erased
I could never be the man you want me to be
It siphons, it siphons all the joy out of me

(Siphons all the joy out of me)
(Siphon, siphon, siphon)

Yeah, it's alright, I know I'm the first to say that its
Irrational to put me in this place
You know I drag my feet
In rewriting habits in my brain
(My brain, my brain, my brain)

Like how I give up who I am for the smile on your face
'Cause all my serotonin is the price I would pay
And now I'm feeling hollow
'Cause the chemicals fading away, away, away

And now I'm going through another breakdown, another reason to change
The things about me that you wanted erased
I could never be the man you want me to be
It siphons, it siphons all the joy out of

Everything my intuition once held close
Kill my second nature, put to death what I know
No matter what I'm telling you, you just won't see
That it siphons
It siphons all the joy out of me

I go around and around and around in circles
Trying my hardest to not feel worthless