Changed Things

You were the only one of us with no addiction gene
We were never really friends, I was turning eighteen
One day, you wake up and realize they're not funny, they're mean
And it changed things

You were running up on Sunset, selling your drugs
We were laughing in the kitchen and pissing mom off
I was lying over nothing, you were honest to a fault
And it changed things

I don't wanna talk for you
You've lived enough for the two of us
Oh, but when I talk to you
I can't help thinking 'bout how good it was

Mom knew it would happen before it did
And she warned us once, we weren't listening
And the mantle came down, and we ran down the street
When I left there in August and it changed things

I don't wanna talk for you
You've hurt enough for the two of us
When I talk to you
I just hear sleeping bags and you choking up

I have this dream where I am back at the old house
And I am running upstairs, and I am getting you out
You were ten years old, and I put you on my back
With a birthday bag

You're saving up your money to see me now
And I hid it well, but you found me out
You were going through my dressers and screaming at me
I started laughing at you and then

I don't get to talk for you
You've said enough for the two of us
Oh, but when I talk to you
You stand on all the things that I forgot

Cold street, cold lawn
Cold door, open
I found you upstairs just laughing
Warm room, cold mom
You talk, I draw
I'm not doing well
You know, you help

I have this dream where I am back at the old house
And I am running up those stairs, I am getting you out
You are ten years old, and I put you on my back
With a birthday bag

I feel it when I'm talking and you punch my arm
And I'm never gonna make it past the Braddicks' lawn
I don't know where I'm going
But I know that I think it might, it might
Change things