I Am Not Okay
Jelly Roll
3:19Yeah, 'cause even a spotlight or a movie Couldn't show the side that I've been hidin' lately And lately They say the old me's not the new me But the same me's still inside that I'm containin' Unchain me And I don't cry like I used to 'Cause I know these tears don't wash my sins away And I don't pray like I used to 'Cause I don't think I deserve the time of day Ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh Listen, I'm sorry, since you saw me I've sought through bones, took my heart out of my body (hm) Have you forgot me? 'Cause I'm longin' for the times when time was non-existent Kaleidoscope eyes, I envision Combine our lives with a two-word sentence You said, "I do," but I did not listen, oh And I don't cry like I used to 'Cause I know these tears don't wash my sins away (They don't wash them away now) And I don't pray like I used to (I don't pray, 'cause I) 'Cause I don't think I deserve the time of day The cross I bear, I wear for my protection (wear for my protection) I'm bendin' then I'm searchin' for connection (searchin' for connection) I barely recognize my own reflection (it's my own reflection) 'Cause all I ever wanted was acceptance (I fear rejection) And I don't cry like I used to (I don't cry, no) 'Cause I know these tears don't wash my sins away (wash my sins away) And I don't pray like I used to (I don't pray no more) 'Cause I don't think I deserve the time of day Ooh-ooh, ooh, ooh-ooh Ooh-ooh-ooh, ooh-ooh