The Way That I Am
Joyner Lucas
3:27I'm standin' outside in the rain Passin' out demo tapes, tryna get a name I was like eleven back then with the braids It was 1999, I was tryna catch a wave I heard Jay-Z was in town, 'bout to hit the Summer Jam stage And I gotta see his face If I give him a demo, then I wonder what he'll say Maybe he'll sign me and I'll finally get a break So now he on stage (Stage) And everybody singin' all the words to his shit and I'm amazed I'm holdin' up my demo with a sign sayin' "Please, I just need a couple minutes Of your time, Mr. Jay, could you—" But that ain't gon' work Fuck it though, I know there's gotta be another way I snuck past security and made it backstage Demo in my hand, hopin' he gon' press play when he see me But when the show was all over, I was tryna walk fast Catch him when he leaves, hopin' we can cross paths But he ain't see me and I was feelin' all bad (Feelin' all bad) And then security approached me, he was wearin' all black I passed him my CD with my house number on it sayin' "If you listen to it, could you please call back, please?" Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo P-P-P-Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please (Please) It's 2001 I'm thirteen now, but I'm better than I was Rappin' in my class when I should be doin' work But I'm thinkin' 'bout this beat I was hearin' on the bus I heard Dre and Snoop Dogg was in town Up In Smoke tour, Eminem comin' out You should've seen the way my eyes popped out You'd have thought that Heavens opened up and God popped out I wish that I could vibe with 'em If I give 'em my demo, maybe I could ride with 'em Maybe Em'll listen if I get some time with 'em Maybe Dre's lookin' for a kid that could sign with him I don't know (I don't know) All I know is that I gotta go, hopefully it all pans out Tryna get tickets, so I get the plan down If I get front row, then I'll probably stand out (Stand out) Then my pops came home with two VIP passes and clutch And at that very moment, I was happy as fuck So I started gettin' dressed all fast in a rush Demo in my hand had a rich man glow He walked in my room and said, "Kid, you can't go" (Damn) And so he brought his girl with him Man, I can't believe I let another big chance go, damn Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo P-P-P-Please listen to my—, uh Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Can you listen to my demo? (To my demo) Please listen to my demo P-P-P-Please, uh A lot of years went by I'm twenty-five now and the tears went dry 2015 And I still got a dream But reality is lookin' kinda real this time I'm in the booth with the grunge on my face Tryna make a demo with no funds in the bank I don't wanna quit 'fore I make it out the bricks And my girl told me that we got a Son on the way, what the fuck? (Damn) I gotta push the go button, I ain't got a bit of time 'Cause it ain't 'bout me no more, I gotta just provide If I don't make it when he born, then I gotta get a job I hit the ground runnin' with a plan Make a mixtape and build somethin' with the fans If I don't do it now, then I never get a chance Got a certain way of thinkin' some will never understand So now I'm sittin' on the block Vibin' out, bumpin' instrumentals in the drop Writin' every day like my pen don't wanna stop And my baby mom packagin' my demos in a box I was pullin' up to schools in a rental CD in my hand, put my arm out the window Nobody took it and I didn't get the memo And all I kept sayin' was, "Please listen to my demo" Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo P-P-P-Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please listen to my demo (To my demo) Please It's 2025 and some change I think I finally made it to a household name Moved my whole family out the hood, what a change Told my momma quit her job, she won't work another day I got platinum plaques now Couple hit singles and I'm back-to-back now Couple big cribs I might have to pass down When I put my demos out, I don't have to ask now if you can listen I'm sayin' what I want All your favorite rappers keep sayin' I'm the one And if I died now, then I'm grateful what I've done 'Cause a lot of niggas never really made it where I'm from I'm on tour and they waitin' in the front Campin' outside while they bakin' in the sun Pull up in your city and they wavin' to the bus Got my songs on the speaker and they singin' every one And so I hit the stage It's the same book, just a different page Crowd goin' crazy, but I notice one kid starin' At me with a glow like he was in a daze I'm lookin' at him in the crowd, I can see his face And he lookin' back at me and I wonder what he thinkin' It remind me of how I used to look at Jay When all I wanted was someone to give my shit a play And when the show was all over, they was tryna get me back in the cut Security was walkin' off faster than us Tryna get me out the building, get me back to the bus Standin' by the bus was the kid that I seen From the crowd, nigga, how coincidental Handed me a CD with his number on the pillow Looked at me and said, "Please listen to my demo"