Secrets (Bonus Track) (Feat. J.R.)

Who do you think you are to take what wasn't yours
The innocence I once adored was stripped away behind closed doors
The enemies inside my home but who would ever listen to me
And all the secrets that you made me keep

Rains on my window pane, darkness surrounding me
Footsteps outside my door, right now, I'm sound asleep
The door it opens slowly and I can hear it slightly
But I don't move or even look to see who it might be
Someone's next to me, their weight is on my bed
My covers pulling back, a hand is on my leg
I wanna sneak and peak, but I just can't seem to let myself
Is my father checking me, I'm nine, and I often wet myself

I have no options, fear got me too gripped to even move
Suppose to protect but abusing me, now I'm so confused
So many emotions with his sweat dripping in lay there motionless
Hoping these nightmares soon to be over with
Holding back cries my mind is racing, closed eyes like I've not awaken
I'd rather die than be in tho situation
As he leaves, I knew this secret I'd bury and hide
But hiding this secret I just seem to be buried alive

Who do you think you are to take what wasn't yours
The innocence I once adored was stripped away behind closed doors
The enemies inside my home but who would ever listen to me
And all the secrets that you made me keep

And it's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart

I'm older, on my own now, I'm grown now
But this secret still won't leave me alone now
Wow, I felt my innocence melt away
Was living promiscuous, freely giving my self away
Why would I protect you? Truth I would hide and cover
Would anyone believe, how could I tell my mother
Confusion turned to sadness, sadness led to me stressing
Stressing led to the anger, anger led to depression

Then I was arrested by a truth that would truly free me
The gospel gripped my heart, showed me how the father see me
Biblical counseling brothers and sisters in my midst
Help me endure it though what happened I'd never forget
But I do have a hope that I do truly know
In heaven, every memory will be whiter than snow
So though I struggle to forgive you, I fight 'cause I must
I must forgive you, 'cause I know he's forgiven me much

Who do you think you are to take what wasn't yours
The innocence I once adored was stripped away behind closed doors
The enemies inside my home but who would ever listen to me
And all the secrets that you made me keep

And it's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart

Abba Father
Where do I go from here?
Abba Father
How do I face my fears?