Secrets Pt. 2 (Bonus Track) (Feat. J.R.)

Probably didn't know (probably didn't know)
Seek what you want (seek what you want)
It's about my wife (it's about my wife)
Sexual abuse (sexual abuse)
Doesn't only affect the victim
This is my perspective (this is my perspective)

Helplessness is such a sad feeling (sad feeling)
One flesh I feel what my other half's feeling (half's feeling)
A second victim but listen
I feel like I'm the man on the side
Not the man on her side, it's a difference

Know what it's like?
To look the love of your life inside of her face and all you seeing is hopelessness? (Hopelessness)
Wanna kiss her, touch her, hug her, but the-
Most intimate moments just remind her of brokenness
I feel so pushed away, I know that sounds so silly
So I take my feeling and bury them it ain't about me really
But it's about me really face it

When the pains so deep I'm starting to think I can taste it
Hurts the more I'm concealing it
Hearing these Christian slogans, nobody knows what I'm dealing with
Are they hearing this?
Look, if you just peep my eyes
You'll see a secret deep inside I can't hide

That's the other part of me
You're just not a victim alone
I wish I could erase her tears
But I need someone to dry my own
I know this ain't about me
Won't make this thing about me but please I hope you're hearing me?
It's been deep in my heart
I live life in the dark

It's tearing me apart (oh, oh, Lord)
Tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart (oh, oh, Lord)
Tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart (oh, oh, Lord)
Tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart (oh, oh, Lord)
Tearing me apart

Real talk, I'm feeling like I could murk dude
Hurt her, then I hurt you
Lord forgive me, I don't know what's getting into me
Mentally it's the enemy, ahh
So many questions I can ask
You can't defend the present from the past
Seems like nobody understands
I can't protect her, I'm feeling less than a man

Stressed, stressed now, 'cause as stressed as I am, there's no way to console her
So much distance between us, will we be any closer?
I just want what we had, Lord will we get any closure
I wanna stand behind her but so much weight on my shoulders
Wait, who am I to really think that I make her complete?
When there's a savior who has promised to offer her peace?
Jehovah Rapha, life couldn't be any realer
So I intercede that by Your grace You would come and heal her and me

'Cause, that's the other part of me
She's not a victim alone
No, I wish I could erase her tears (I do)
But I need someone to dry my own
I know this ain't about me (no)
Won't make this thing about me (I won't)
But please, I hope you're hearing me?
It's been deep in my heart (heart)
I live life in the dark

It's tearing me apart (oh, oh, Lord)
Tearing me apart
It's tearing me apart (yeah) (oh, oh, Lord)
Tearing me apart (yeah) (tearing me apart)
It's tearing me apart (oh, oh, Lord) (yeah, yeah)
Tearing me apart (it's tearing me apart)
It's tearing me apart (yeah) (oh, oh, Lord)
Tearing me apart (yeah) (tearing me apart)