Stand Still

They called me names I never chose
Bent my back so they could pose
Every laugh, a little knife
Cutting deeper through my life
I learned to shrink, to disappear
Speak in whispers, hide my fear
Told myself, don’t make a sound
It’s safer lying on the ground

But silence stains like blood on white
And ghosts don’t sleep alone at night

It’s like I live behind my hourglass
Cry out in mute, cause no one asks
See laughs while I drowned in doubt
When I’m crawling my way out
Believe the true, I give up too easily
Maybe I’m made of cracked beliefs
Evading gaze on me like I'm not real
Like I was made to just stand still

I used to dream I was someone else
A someone strong, a phantom self
Wrote my pain in empty names
A hero free from all this shame
But it don’t stop the hands that shove
Or turn hate into something love
So now I breathe a little less
I stand broken inside this mess

And silence stains like blood on white
Cause ghosts don’t sleep alone at night

It’s like I live behind my hourglass
Cry out in mute, cause no one asks
See laughs while I drowned in doubt
When I’m crawling my way out
Believe the true, I give up too easily
Maybe I’m made of cracked beliefs
Evading gaze on me like I'm not real
Like I was made to just stand still

Like I was made to just stand still

Nobody knows the war inside
Of the trembling soul crucified
But broken doesn’t mean destroyed
The unspoken can become a voice

It’s like I live behind my hourglass
Cry out in mute, cause no one asks
See laughs while I drowned in doubt
When I’m crawling my way out
Believe the true, I give up too easily
Maybe I’m made of cracked beliefs
Evading gaze on me like I'm not real
Like I was made to just stand still

It’s like I live behind my hourglass
Cry out in mute, cause no one asks
See laughs while I drowned in doubt
When I’m crawling my way out
I lose by choice so it won’t sting
My mind is shape by make-believe
Called it weakness, it’s just surviving
Cause I was made to just stand still

I was made to just stand still…
I was made to just stand still.