Journal 40

Forty
Journal forty
Um, this one's a fun one
So, I was thinking about it a lot and I've just wronged... so many people
And I- I was so shocked at first cause I was like, "I'm not a bad person"
Y'know like... like- like... I sh- I- It's my responsibility
But it's- it's not
Like it wasn't me wanting to be malicious
And I realize because of the environment I've been in
Who I was like- who I've seen, who have been my role models
Role models and inspirations for friendships and relationships
Whether or not it be truly inspirations but just what I thought was the norm
And- and it's something I've had to rewire
What I've been shown, and what I've been given in a lot of scenarios is so harmful
And it affects me a lot
And it's just terrifying to think anyone, no matter how malicious or how good their intentions are
They can- they can hurt others in friendships, relationships, whatever it may be

Yeah, um
Short one for today
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