Hebetation

I don't know which way to run
One thousand different ways but I can't seem to live with one
So I'm stuck where I've begun
Another languid day, can't seem to break away

When I was young I tried a million different ways to find
A panacea that would hebetate a restless mind
25 and all I find are clever ways to hide
Every night I dream a million different ways for me to die

Every night I close my eyes
I lie awake and try to pacify a listless mind
Nothing's changed at 35
Still every night I dream a million different ways for me to die