Lich

Lump inside my throat
Puts pressure to my chest
Keeps pushing and pushing
And make feel the guilt

Shortcuts taken again
But I still can't fill you up
I can't wait to get home
Can't wait to be alone

Got use to the bitter taste
Got used to you etching me up
I ignore the obvious
I don't even care

While I press my tongue
While I grind my teeth
I try not to lose it all
Not to lose control

You are a cure bringing cancer
Dissolving me into your heaven

Weird numbing power trip
Hundred million butterflies
Shape shifting stupid little joy
High speed emotion on adrenaline
Excitingly relaxing dream eater
Dimension four window
Ethereal gateway
Time bender
Room changer
Ecstatic shock

When I only saw the night
You made me see the stars
You absorbed me into your
Blissful sea of tar

I somehow feel like shit
For using you again

In the end I really do not care enough