Good Grief

Predator or Prey
Shoutout to the ones that got away
In the mirror questioning if I'm ok
Lately it's been kinda hard to say

Lately it's been kinda hard to breathe
Can't stop fuckin that's how I grieve
Can't stop smoking that's how I grieve
Bend that ass over let me grieve

That's how my first child was conceived
Remember finding out it brought me to my knees

I was 17
Still tryna figure out what all this shit mean

Can't even celebrate the accolades I've received
Gained a couple followers but what did I achieve

Fuckin on my friends I was playing make believe
Making you believe it was love on my sleeve

It was just lust
Member days when it was just us
Could barely get daipers cuz I aint have much

That UPS job was never gone be enough
Switched to FedEx in Cordelia loading trucks

Copped the I30 on credit
I was big headed
Knew it was lemon
Still had to get it

Had to prove myself
Fooling round
I done fooled myself

Took years to shed tears for the pain I felt
Even longer to communicate the shame I felt

Even longer just to realize I blamed myself
c couple times contemplated tryna hang myself

... this ain't a sad song
This is where I'm at now but this at my last song

This is just life rap
It's different when a nigga transparent
They think I never suffered cuz I had both parents

I done seen addiction in all forms
Sunny days ruined by small storms

Smile when it rain on me
I'm doing bad if you ever see a chain on me

I'm doing laundry if you ever see em gain on me
I'm doing alot of new shit but I'm the same ole me

Lyin and cheating to have my way
I can't share my gifts but you could have my sleigh

You can have my clothes
You can have my time
You can have my blueprint
But you can't have my mind

The lightbulb went off and now they want my shine
It's gone be hard to love yoself if you want what's mine

Gone be hard to love yoself if you want what's theirs
Gone be hard to see growth if you don't wanna share

Gone be hard to be impactful if you don't really care
Life's a circus
Nobody said the shit would be fair

...But nonetheless I still expect it
Hissy fits every time I get rejected
I had to let her go but she respect it
When it's undeniable you must accept it

...cll the shit I took for granted
Finally seeing fruit from the seeds that I planted

Wishing on a star like I ain't have time to planet
Some days I barely understand it

This aint softball but the compliments be coming underhanded
Typically disguised as being candid

Grateful I can see thru it
Grateful I can hold my own
cin't living well if you scared to let her hold yo phone

cnd that's facts
Done tryna run from it
..When you cum from it
You forget you come from it

Shoutout to the women that done held me down
To the ones that seen me weak and still shined my crown

Still steamed my cape
Still washed my throne
Seen the foundation broke
cnd still built that home

Seen the finances change and took out that loan
I'm kissing ass and rubbing feet as soon as I come home
cnd that's facts

cnd that's facts


Predator or Prey
Shoutout to the ones that got away
In the mirror questioning if I'm ok
Lately it's been kinda hard to say

Lately it's been kinda hard to breathe
Can't stop fuckin that's how I grieve
Can't stop smoking that's how I grieve
Bend that ass over let me grieve