Aftermath

How did I become the toxic one?
I keep on trying to unlearn the person I've become
Why did I ignore all of the signs?
You went from someone I admired to someone I despise

Thought leaving you'd be easy
But what's good is never easy
And now I'm stuck in therapy

So I changed everything that you hated
Hurt me then convinced me I was wrong
Only kissed me when I had my makeup on
And I caved, instead of running, I waited
For you to care enough to fix yourself
Ain't it ironic now it's me that needs the help?

So even when I'm fine, I can't tell
If I'm happy or I'm sad
'Cause no one ever talks about the aftermath

Guess it's normal when you're sad to speak your mind
They won't tell you that you're crazy
They might even say they're sorry
I'm supposed to stay connected to my friends
I can have a fight, doesn't have to be the end

I knew you were the problem
Now I'm the one with problems
So I'm still stuck in therapy

So I changed everything that you hated
Hurt me, then convinced me I was wrong
Only kissed me when I had my makeup on
And I caved, instead of running, I waited
For you to care enough to fix yourself
Ain't it ironic now it's me that needs the help?

So even when I'm fine, I can't tell
If I'm happy or I'm sad
'Cause no one ever talks

Yeah, even when I'm fine, I can't tell
If I'm happy or I'm sad
'Cause no one ever talks about the aftermath