All I Had Left

I gave you the last pieces of me
Now I don't even know who's in the mirror
Just tired, just... done, I didn't want to write this
But you gave me no choice

I held the weight like a soldier does
Covered your wounds while I bled because
You needed strength and I gave you mine
'Til my pulse slowed down, now I'm flatlined

Listened at 2 a.m. when you cried
Gave you hope when you wanted to die
I showed up, no matter the storm
Now my soul's soaked, and I'm left to form

You took and took, I stayed on call
And asked me on the edge, and you let me fall
You say love like it's cheap and fast
But love don't vanish when the skies go black

Where the fuck were you when I shattered inside?
When the tears hit the pillow every goddamn night
I gave you my light, now I'm stuck in this dark
Y'all vanished quick, left a hole in my heart
I gave you my fight, my time, my breath
Now I'm just born
You took all I had left

I stayed ten toes to your storms and scars
But y'all bounced quick when I showed my balls
You called me strong like that meant I'm fine
But I cried every night just to feel alive

Held my chest with a panic hit
Told myself they cared, but they never did
Had a breakdown, nobody came
Guess my silence never made y'all shame

I was the glue for a broken team
Now I'm cracked in ways you'll never see
Family's just a word that y'all abuse
You dipped the second I couldn't be used

Where the fuck were you when I shattered inside?
When the tears hit the pillow every goddamn night
I gave you my light, now I'm stuck in this dark
Y'all vanished quick, left a hole in my heart
Was I just a tool, or was I just a crutch?
You show fake love and I gave too much
I gave you my fight, my time, my breath
Now I'm just pause

Kiss me with that I didn't know line
You saw the signs, you just declined
"Call me if you need me," that's a lie
'Cause I did, and all I got was silence and ain't reply

I ain't your hero, I'm not your fix
I'm not the one to save you quick
Next time you're drowning, swim alone
'Cause I'm out the game, my heart's gone stone

I wrote this song as a burial speech for the me that gave 'til I couldn't breathe
For the one who stayed when he shouldn't have stayed
Who looked too deep and got left to carry
I'm not bitter, I'm just done pretending
This chapter's closed, this book is ending
You'll scroll one day, maybe feel a sting
But by then I'll be gone, no more puppet strings

Where were you when the walls gave in?
When I drowned in the dark and forgot how to swim
I bled for y'all, now I'm hollow and cold
Left me to rot while you watched me fall
I broke in half just to keep you whole
Carried your pain while I lost control
Don't come back now that the damage is done
You were gone when I needed someone

No calls (no calls), no texts (no texts)
No prayers (no prayers), no checks (no checks)
Know you good (know you good), just silence (just silence)
That silence, that told me everything
And now you get mine