I'M Going Crazy

Dying so slowly, it so easily slips my mind
Mistakes, regrets, apologies
Are what we are so often defined by
I'm praying that you save me (save me)
Free me from my chains
Before you lay me down to die
Maybe I'm going crazy (crazy)
I'll make it to the other side
Make sure you put coins on my eyes

Yeah, I crossed the river man I'm fresh off of the boat
The goat float like soap, crocodiles in a moat
My motion at a high and emotions at a low
The potion in my blood not working, it's a dud
A ghost covered in mud, weights chained to my soul
My heart got lots of holes, Swiss cheese with some mold on it
I don't smoke like chimneys no mo'
And I forgot how to roll chronic, only how to mold phonics
You took the high road, you gotta pay the toll
The ferryman is scary and he very fond of gold
Currency's a curse, you're defined by your purse
How much it hurt to carry, is your wallet filled with dirt?
Hilarious
Do you share, do you hoard?
Is it easy to afford the various objects?
Nefarious odd jobs for very large checks
A cherry on top, eat it when you drop dead

Dying so slowly, it so easily slips my mind
Mistakes, regrets, apologies
Are what we are so often defined by
I'm praying that you save me (save me)
Free me from my chains
Before you lay me down to die
Maybe I'm going crazy (crazy)
I'll make it to the other side
Make sure you put coins on my eyes

What goes up, must come down
I know plenty of people getting lost in the sound
Powerful vibration shaping your perspective
Truth and deception polluting your perception
I know there's someone out there who feels lost
And they'd pay any cost to be found
But I won't be free 'til I'm sleeping underground
Understand our society is built on mounds of quicksand
Quick, run
They cover up the Sun
They murdering our sons and our daughters
And slaughtering our culture
Our separation makes us easy targets for the vultures, buzzards
How can we do anything if we don't got each other?
I hear MC's preaching separation, racism and hatred
I got love for every color and face
I've been places that you might never see
I sit for hours meditating in the shade of a tree
I got a fire in my heart, I let it burn
I fight for love until that fire put me in a urn
And you ain't worth more based on how much you earn
Some of the wealthiest souls in the world die broke
With barely anybody hearing one thing they spoke
With blood leaking out their throat, or hanging from a rope
I swear to God I will keep creating 'til I die
I'ma try if it mean I bring a single person hope, ah

Hold on, hold on, you gotta hold on
Yeah you gotta hold on, yeah you gotta hold on
Hold on, hold on, you gotta hold on
Yeah you gotta hold on, yeah you gotta hold on
Oh-oh, yeah you gotta hold on, don't let go now
Hold on, oh-oh (yeah, yeah)
Oh-oh, yeah you gotta hold on, don't let go now
Hold on, oh-oh (yeah, yeah)
(Yeah)

I wish you could see the man I've become
I wish you could know the things that I've done
I wish you could hold my hand on stage
It's been a while since I went to your grave
I wish you could be there to meet my child
I wish I could one time see your smile
I know that you're proud of me
And that your love is surrounding me through every trial

Yeah
I know your love, it surrounds me
But I'd still kill everybody in this crowd
If it means I could have you back
I burn every rack and never make a track
If it meant I can see you again
My best friend taught me how to be a man
You left, and now our family is lost
We pretend it's a'ight
But I know grandma can't sleep at night
The same way as befo'
My heart is so cold

I wish you could see the man I've become
I wish you could know the things that I've done
I wish you could hold my hand on stage
It's been a while since I went to your grave
I wish you could be there to meet my child
I wish I could one time see your smile
I know that you're proud of me
And that your love is surrounding me through every trial

I can't help but think about how it would be if you stayed
Would the men in my family have a role model?
Would I have drank the whole bottle?
Would I have a tattoo on my face?
Would I cry?
When I see a picture in a frame?
Would my own blood be so quick to place blame on each other?
Would my brother have gone away?
I remember seeing dad at church on that day
Hands clasped together, trying to pray
As I grow older, my memories fade
Sat in the living room playing with toy trains
I remember when you died I didn't find out for three days
'Cause my mama didn't want to go and ruin the vacation
I knew something was wrong, I could see it in they faces
Dinner time, everyone but me was wearing black
Why didn't you tell me?
That was the day my heart snapped

I wish you could see the man I've become
I wish you could know the things that I've done
I wish you could hold my hand on stage
It's been a while since I went to your grave
I wish you could be there to meet my child
I wish I could one time see your smile
I know that you're proud of me
And that your love is surrounding me through every trial

Found one time at Ardenwood?
And I walked beside you with the pony
No
Do you remember riding the pony?
No
Do you remember Ardenwood?
No
You don't remember any of that?
Mm, no
Is that a--is that a fib?
Ah
I can sing a song
Oh, let's sing a song, what shall we sing?
We should sing the cats song
The cats song, and how does that go?