Bad Motherfucker

I'm feelin' good, first time in a long time
A lot of thoughts in my mind, but the scary kind
I used to fear senior year would've been my prime
But I never graduated, guess I turned out fine
Searchin' for somethin' that I need to find
'Cause I think about dyin' all the time
Life's fuckin' hard, but I'm tryin' all the time, damn
I'm on the edge, God's callin' from the other line
But every time I pick up, I only hear the Devil
I don't give a damn, I don't wanna settle
I just wanna live a good life, die a good man
Like the bad motherfucker I am

I won't deny it
I've been livin' my life, not a fuck given
Can't deny it
You can say what you want, but that's my decision
Won't deny it
I've been livin' my life, not a fuck given
Can't deny it
I'ma be a bad motherfucker 'til the, 'til the day I stop kickin'
Stop kickin', y'all

Never had a family, but I had friends
If we're talkin' real life, I guess that all depends
I was thinkin' more of Rachel and Monica
Daydreams of livin' in Santa Monica
All I ever knew of family was television
'Cause mine was doin' hard drugs and locked up in prison
I guess that's why I never made the same decision
I haven't spoken to my mom in years, I heard she found religion
I'm just playin' life like Atari
I was never perfect, I'm fucked up, I'm sorry, I'm human
My childhood was fucked and it's loomin' over me
Every time I think about it, I know I shouldn't be here
Where I stand
I just wanna live a good life
Die a good man
Like the bad motherfucker I am

I won't deny it
I've been livin' my life, not a fuck given
Can't deny it
You can say what you want, but that's my decision
Won't deny it
I've been livin' my life, not a fuck given
Can't deny it
I'ma be a bad motherfucker 'til the, 'til the day I stop kickin'