Centipede Legs

I'm staring deep into your eyes again
They stare at me, I'm staring back at them
And anything I ever do is everything
No sense of safety, no security
No structure, my vulnerability
Is endlessly habitual and sickening

No, I don't wanna die, I'd never even try
I'm praying all my life while I'm combin' through your lies
With every bone I crack, my legs keep comin' back
I'm always keepin' on
But always losin' track, keep my head on tight

And if I ever fall, just promise me
That I will be okay, I need this, please
I want to feel secure, but honestly?
I'm living through your mind subconsciously

Oh! Watch me stumble as I fall
I know you have seen it all
Take sick joy out of my pain
You and I are not the same
I know you gave me my name
Know my secrets and my shame
Though I give you your acclaim
You break all my centipede legs

Every time I turn around
There's something new about you
I thought I know you up and down
Sometimes, I swear I still do
Clinging to the past, like it does me any good
I'm avoidin' the red flags like a good devotee should

Now I'm turning back around
Yeah, I'm looking up and down
Findin' cracks inside the walls
Wonderin' what holds me down
But it all comes back to you
Yeah, it all comes back to you
No, I wish that wasn't true
Tell me, what I am to do? Do, do?

And if I ever fall, just promise me
That I will be okay, I need this, please
I want to feel secure, but honestly?
I'm living through your mind subconsciously

Oh! Watch me stumble as I fall
I know you have seen it all
Take sick joy out of my pain
You and I are not the same
I know you gave me my name
Know my secrets and my shame
Though I give you your acclaim
You break all my centipede legs

If you love me like you say
Why do you keep hurting me?
Crawl back to you, either way
Despite all of my broken legs

Oh! Watch me stumble as I fall
I know you have seen it all
Take sick joy out of my pain
You and I are not the same
I know you gave me my name
Know my secrets and my shame
Though I give you your acclaim
You break all my centipede legs