Always Me

Who got the Hennessey?

Stab me in my back, used for what they need
Treated me like trash, curse me when they leave
Only thing I ask, why is it always me?
Am I really that bad? Is there something I don't see?

What is it I don't have? Standards I don't meet
Why is who I am someone no one wants to be?
How did all my dreams end up so far out of reach?
How did everything end up broke and asking me?

I've been lied to, I've been backstabbed, I've been snaked out, I've been cheated on
Remained quiet when the story flipped, and it was told to y'all to make me look wrong
Hard times when the lesson's hit, wonder why I'm such a pessimist (why?)
Can't accept love, I'd rather question it, and y'all switching up was a definite
Gotten used to fakes, I ain't stressing shit
More leeches around me with the blessings get
Used up, everybody crutched, so much evil they may need an exorcist

Smile gone, I ain't affectionate, energy is off, ain't protecting it
My mental harmed and affected with, choices made, getting played
Lost his way, trying to find himself, can't complain, he reminds himself
How it is today, he designed himself, Ray Ray needs all kind of help (I do)
Prolly just getting what he asked for (prolly), with his conscious scream as the glass poured
Tears fall and he grabs for, the loaded pistol and the dashboard

Stab me in my back, use me for what they need
Treated me like trash, curse me when they leave
Only thing I ask, why is it always me?
Am I really that bad? Is there something I don't see?

What is it I don't have? Standards I don't meet
Why is who I am someone no one wants to be?
How did all my dreams end up so far out of reach?
How did everything end up broke and asking me?

He could end it all, what he thinking now, we were smooth sailing, ship sinking now
When we jumping, bitch, done jump ship, I'm confronted with being dumb as this
I trusted folks, let people close, and no one is here when they need it most
Depressed as fuck, trying to overdose, 'cause his heart hurt and his soul broke

Blow his brains out, that's a coward way, but the hardship's done devoured, Ray
What he needs to do is a power play, instead of sitting around with a sour face
Like poor me, they ignore me, try to sober up, get more sleep
Fuck they problems, this your business, they tryna bully and eat you, look more weird

Stab me in my back, use me for what they need
Treated me like trash, curse me when they leave
Only thing I ask, why is it always me?
Am I really that bad? Is there something I don't see? Yeah, yeah