Ashamed

Ashamed to be alive
Too afraid to live, too afraid to die
I don't know what I'm doing and I'm losing time
Afraid to care at all
Afraid I'm setting myself up
to take the fall
I can't live the life
Don't wanna fight the fight
I'm too dull to be bright
I just need some light
All my life
Living on a lie
I don't wanna try
And drag myself back together again
Ashamed of who I am
Ashamed of where I'm from
Ashamed of all the broken ties I've left behind in time
Ashamed all my past
Afraid of the future
Why fight to live a life that's not worth living anymore?
I guess I'm a failure
Hate to start up again
But it's just now and then
I don't understand why you'd do this to a friend
Maybe I lost my light
I won't break tonight
Or at least that's what I'm saying, but is it right?
I've been on the train
It doesn't make you sane
I hate everything that goes on in my brain
I have no thought
I care but it's not
A way to fix all the pain that I have wrought
Ashamed of who I am
Ashamed of the part of me
That's still holding on to all the things I left back in the past
Ashamed of all I've done
Afraid of what I've become
Why fight to end up right back the same way I was before?
I guess I'm a drag now