Denial

At night, sometimes my thoughts collide
My body shakes
I feel so separated
From what I thought I'd be and what I am
Is there nothing I can do

To make it up to them to make it up
Or does time just separate me?
I want to feel the earth, its crushingness
As it wraps around my neck

I've been feeling lately like I need to be alone
You've been thinking much too deeply about how to atone
When I close my eyes, I'm never really by myself
All the strangers that adore me put my on a shelf

Pick yourself up, baby
Everything's gonna be fine
But if not, so what?
You'll get it the next time
You should stop
Getting down on yourself every day
It's okay to fall apart when you feel so crazy

I've been feeling lately like I need to be alone
You've been thinkin' much too deeply about how to atone
When I close my eyes, I'm never really by myself
All the strangers that adore me put my on a shelf