Halfway To Whole

There's that feeling
I won't be here for long
There just ain't no fixin'
Everything that's wrong

There's no goin'
No, there's no goin' home
'Cause home's been forgotten
For some time spent alone

And my loved ones
They don't call me at all
But they say that they love me
So I tighten my jaw

And I fall back into the weeds
I don't think that it's selfish
For me to be mean

But my music
It don't heal me no more
It got twisted and mangled
For some bills on the board

And my lover
Well, I left her alone
I got lost in my purpose
Then my purpose went cold

I'm a failure
I'm a fucking blackhole
I bought into a liar
And my future got sold

Now I'm tired
Thorns in my side
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna die

But it's getting old
Oh, I'm getting old
Now I'm stuck on the shoulder
And not even halfway to whole

And I'm halfway to Kansas
And not even halfway to whole

So I summon my demons
'Cause there's no one here I know
And I'm halfway to dyin'
And not even halfway to whole