What If

When I was younger
I thought of bearing
As a reason for some to praise me
And envy
So humble and kind
No better person
Now that I'm older
I've seen what I've been
Ruthless, ungrateful
Always try to turn and I've
Trashed it about me
Or you

Seeking out the faithful in me
With tricks of trust and gluttony
I don't wanna wait for anyone

When I was younger
I thought of deep space
Pick me up swiftly
Carry me away
Drop me off willing
Light years long gone
Never again seeing those who I loved
It's not about me this time
There I go lying again
Please save my soul
I don't know what I'm doing anymore
Seeking out the faithful in me with singles and a pen
Is it possible I'm overthinking this?

It's not what I'm not
It's what I believe in
It's not what I've got
It's my peace of mind
Too early to see if I'm still in the past
Too hopeful to be wasting time
It's not what I'm not
It's what I believe in
It's not what I've got
It's my peace of mind
Too early to see if I'll be

Seeking out the fraud in me
With compassion and honesty
I'm waiting for you
Radiating