My Deepest Truth

I think about the person 
That people thought I was
It wasn't easier for me
I didn't wanna kill the buzz

But the days fly by when there's nobody that knows you
If you say that I'm orange then I'm of the brightest hue

But I've got better friendships now
I think it's going well
It's hard to be around my family
Tell my brother to go to hell

I take the deepest breath before I walk into a store
cnd hope nobody calls me "miss" before I get back out the door

But I'm not scared of myself anymore
cnd it's okay I didn't know when I was four
cnd my deepest truth is that I'm Blue down to the core
Do you still love me?

When I was seventeen I couldn't see another year
cnd I wrote pages upon pages about all my greatest fears
I told my dad that I was gay, that's what he didn't want to hear
cnd everybody told me my existence comes with fears

But I'm not scared of myself anymore
cnd it's okay I didn't know when I was four
cnd my deepest truth is that I'm Blue down to the core
Do you still love me?

I'll give you time
I'll give you all the time you need
I just need for you to tell me
That you'll be there when I'm bleeding
cnd if you can't seem to shake her
I'm afraid that I'll be leaving
cnd the next time that you hug me
I'm afraid that you'll be sleeping

cnd I guess that's okay because

But I'm not scared of myself anymore
cnd it's okay I didn't know when I was four
cnd my deepest truth is that I'm Blue down to the core
Hope you still love me