I Am Not A Fucking Martyr

You lit the fire
But I won't burn for your sins...

You wear your crown of rust like gold
While pointing fingers, acting bold
You build your heaven out of blame
But every prayer you shout is lame

I bled in silence, broke my spine
For ghosts that never gave a sign
Now I'm the storm beneath your lies
And I won't bow, I won't comply

Tired of walking through your flames
Of swallowing your dirty shame
You want a hero?
Find someone else to crucify

I am not a fucking martyr
Not your lamb, not your slaughter
Take your chains and make a crown
Wear it while your world burns down

I am not your broken savior
Not your mask, not your prayer
Keep your guilt and fake affection
I rise from your rejection!

You love to paint me black and white
But I'm the grey you fear at night
I took your pain and made it art
But now I tear that frame apart

You think regret is just a pose
A stage you built with borrowed prose
But I'm the scream you can't contain
A requiem of truth and pain

No more kneeling in your name
I'm the fire you couldn't tame
You want redemption?
Then burn for your own game

I am not a fucking martyr
Not your goddamn holy starter
You want blood? Then bleed alone
I've carved my fate into the stone

I am not your fallen savior
Not your cross, not your failure
This is not a cry for grace
It's war inside my face!

You called me weak
While hiding behind saints and lies
You called me lost
But I was the only one who fucking tried
You built a kingdom
On my pain and sacrifice
But I won't die for you twice...

I am not a fucking martyr
Not your saint, not your charter
I won't kneel, I won't drown
You'll see me rise when you go down

I am not your beautiful failure
I'm the end, I'm the savior
This is not a sad goodbye
This is me choosing to survive!

I... survive...