Heaven Or Hell

Heaven or Hell oh which place am I going
There's blood on my hands and this weight I can't hold it
Try to have faith but this time I don't know if
The weight of my sins can go by so unnoticed
Heaven or Hell oh which place am I going
There's blood on my hands and this weight I can't hold it
Try to have faith but this time I don't know if
The weight of my sins can go by so unnoticed
Heaven or Hell

I stay up at night when I think on my past its appalling to me
All of the bridges I burned by myself I'm just swallowed by grief
All of these people I cheat and deceive don't invest any time in then blame it on music when truth is it's me I'm just lost in my greed
Sorry it's me
Scared to be lonely so I juggle women, if one of them leaves it's okay I got three
Feeding my ego and feeding my urges creating a habit that harder to breach
Temptation got me I'm locked on his leash see my father told me
If I wanted some answers then reach out to God but every time I call
He just sends me to voicemail watching my name on his caller ID
Awkward to think
My soul is worth saving there's blood on my hands from the hearts that I broke yeah you reap what you sow but my needle don't fit in the stitches I seam
Heaven or Hell makes no difference to me
Cause I know where I go is dependent on all of my choices
All of the things that I did to avoid working hard on myself
God I think I need help won't you please talk to me

Heaven or Hell oh which place am I going
There's blood on my hands and this weight I can't hold it
Try to have faith but this time I don't know if
The weight of my sins can go by so unnoticed
Heaven or Hell oh which place am I going
There's blood on my hands and this weight I can't hold it
Try to have faith but this time I don't know if
The weight of my sins can go by so unnoticed
Heaven or Hell

Maybe I'm prideful
Maybe I'm toxic
Maybe I'm someone who needed to lose
Maybe I spiral
Maybe I'm lost in
Thoughts of submitting my self to the truth
Trying to be mindful
But I'm exhausted
Keeping up with all the lies that I use
Stuck in this cycle
Made me so guarded
Left me with options I struggle to choose
But I'm not you
How you gonna judge a life that you never lived
Everybody's got a voice till it's time for them to speak
Realizing things ain't ever what they seem
Used to tear myself apart over crocodile tears that were rolling down your cheek
Till I finally understood people got their own motives hit their own quotas regardless what you think
You gotta let go or you're gonna get dragged
People outgrow people from their own past
Grudges you hold only seem to waste time that you'll never get back it's like trying to be grounded on beds of quick sand
Used to indulge on the things that distract
Me from my goals and this dream that I have
Now I'm so cold, they're calling me the goat got the world by the throat with this freaking pen pad

Heaven or Hell oh which place am I going
There's blood on my hands and this weight I can't hold it
Try to have faith but this time I don't know if
The weight of my sins can go by so unnoticed
Heaven or Hell oh which place am I going
There's blood on my hands and this weight I can't hold it
Try to have faith but this time I don't know if
The weight of my sins can go by so unnoticed
Heaven or Hell