Nightmares

I wish you were the monster under my bed
And not the one I want in it
I wish you were the bad guy inside of my head
Though it's hard to admit it

Want you to be everything that's wrong with me
Not the one who could fix this
I wish you were everything I hate in the world
Not the best person in it

Don't wanna love, 'cause then I'll misbehave
Don't wanna think of you and feel safe
Don't wanna drown if there's another way
So at the end of the day

I hope you're in my nightmares
'Cause to dream of you is unfair
I hope one day I don't care
'Cause to dream of you is unfair

I want to wake in a cold sweat
Want to feel chills on the back of my neck
Want to feel like I need space
Want to feel all of my love is misplaced

Don't wanna dream
'Cause everything's not as it seems
And I'm so tired of waking
Don't want to feel this ashamed, and
Just want to know that there's someone to blame

Don't wanna love, 'cause then I'll misbehave
Don't wanna think of you and feel saved
Don't wanna drown if there's another way
So at the end of the day

I hope you're in my nightmares
'Cause to dream of you is unfair
I hope one day I don't care
'Cause to dream of you is unfair