Pandemonium Is My Candy

Am I the only one?
Who feels the lack of sun
I watch the tides turn
I don't feel less stressed
Oh I want to
Become normal like you and you
Was I just lonely?
Picking myself off the streets
To remind myself I'm pretty
Do I need motivation
Some more validation to see
I'm better off alone
But it's never enough, hmmm
Can I have this?
Can I want this?
Nobody taught me
And frankly I don't care

I don't really like anybody
But I want to feel loved
Can I just Love
Myself and my friends?
Do I have to like somebody?
To feel less alone?
Can I just hold your hand

Helplessly, Hmm
Did I ever feel it was right, Hmm
As I look again at myself I
No I'll never feel the same
And I'll never feel the way
That everyone wants me to
Is there something wrong with me?
Is there something wrong ways that I cry
For everyone but my, myself
Can I pretend
That everything is fine
Can I just say
That I don't really feel like I am broken

I don't really like anybody
But I want to feel loved
Can I just love
Myself and my friends?
Every waking every moment
My chest is in pain
And I'm tired of receiving
This surface of care
A repetitive response
Cause I know they don't mind
As long as they believe
That I don't wanna die
Tell me do you care
I'm really tired of pushing myself
I don't wanna die
But sometimes I do