Autovivisection.

Autovivisection: to dissect the self. Examine the pulse of every blackened organ, and tear them to shreds.
A testament to my regret. i'll never forgive myself, let blood run.
Remove rotten innards.
Sloppily suture the wound.
Leak at the seams in return.
Consequence of my deception.
No pain can repay what has been done.
Self sacrifice, for i've become numb.