All The Same/Not The Same

I'll take the weekend off, try not to pop my clogs
Rot in my bed and do it over again
Gave up on playing God, what I was thinking of
Neglect myself, focus on fixing my friends

I'm busy freaking out to beat to turn it round
I tell myself I'll work it out in the end
The mask is falling down, my eyes are heavy now
New year, new me won't cut, but we can pretend

I'm holding on
But this place is too loud

We'll all get together and disappoint them anyway
I'll be the same, we'll all be the same
We're all spinning plates, we'll crash and then we'll medicate
It's not the same, but we're all the same

I'll fry my hair to shit, and you forgot to tie your shoes
I don't mean to offend, just picking up on context clues
I saw you drifting off to space, sometimes I do that too
I dig your vacant face, l'd like to waste my time with you

I'm holding on
But this place is too loud

We'll all get together and disappoint them anyway
I'll be the same, we'll all be the same
We're all spinning plates, we'll crash and then we'll medicate
It's not the same, but we're all the same

Fuck this disorder, tormented torture
This time I'm seeking more than a weekend
Another day, another overdue diagnosis
Another pill, another bill wasted on self hypnosis
Fuck this disorder, fuck this disorder

We'll all get together and disappoint them anyway
I'll be the same, we'll all be the same
We're all spinning plates, we'll crash and then we'll medicate
It's not the same, but we're all the same