Recovery

Was dead in my sin I been brought back to life
I was falling away, like dang I been trippn
deceiving myself & na I ain't gone cap I been missing my brudda can't stop reminiscing
Like what would you do, I feel this ain't it
But my brudda was lost ain't no help for the kid
They feel that I'm trippn if I don't submit, so I leave to God and it is what it is
Now I'm back at the bottom it's envy around
I feel it ain't real when they look at me now
I been needing a break so I head outta town
I feel I'll grow, ain't familiar around
Man I needa seek
I needa revive
My heart been defiled, I been lusting inside
Been dealing wit pride I listened to lies
Coming back & I'm better I'm holding it down
I Put that on my daddy
Sum else gotta happen
Fall for the trap now the enemy laughing
But I seen it coming man I should of knew
That disobedience, man look what it do
Dem Jezzy attacks destroying my callin man they be all over me
they coming after me
They come to the church just to capture me
I'm guessing that they got a strategy
noble fell off like what happen to me
I was so bold with the passion in me
They see my potential and hold back the key
& they say that it's love that ain't covering me
They smile in my face like that's funny to me
But I'm not giving up, they know that I'm rocking out
This the confessions that people don't talk about
Aint holding nun in imma speak out

Coming back & I'm better so tell them get at me
Been delivered now it's time to get active
I walk in my purpose we all got a calling
Submit to the father and tell them keep talking
Unforgiveness from the ones who knew me
Obeying the father they look at me stupid
They know how I come & they know I'll crank
Correcting the church people walking with planks
Thinking you wise you is not what you thank
You running the boat you a captain you sank
Walking in pride now you feel like a tank
Don't be the accuser and turn to the snake
Closest friends becoming my enemies
My enemies turn to a friend to me
But I know that the battle not flesh & blood
Let him come inside watch him clean ya up
I got rid of the old me
Leaning on Christ no codeine
It's many who talk but don't know me
I'm standing on 10 I ain't folding
If you say that you bout it then show me
I'm obeying the father they know I go harder & most of these rappers they know me
I don't talk to nobody remaining in silence I stay to myself cause these people be flauging
They say that they real but they know they ain't bout it
They care for they self they don't care bout the body
If they see that you up they gone talk down about it
I was only 18 when a youngin got saved
They talking to me like I'm 80 these days
They ain't riding with me cause I'm on a new wave
Ain't no problem wit me cause they know I don't play
Woke up this morning like Lord what's the play
He told me sit still, keep seeking his face
It's by the grace I'm still in this race
But his grace gotta connect with my faith
Woke up this morning like Lord what's the play
He told me sit still, keep seeking his face
Out on the field told my bruddas to cover me
Ain't been on the field I'm still in recovery