Rigged & Ready

It's winter, I'm late I lost this game 
Of white Russian roulette but I'm fine I'm quite ok, 
And she knows I'm royal loyal to lovers 
I'll die here with you when my veins lose their hue 

'Cause I never fixed my broken jaw 
That's why my words don't ever come out at all, 
So when you come out fix another for me 
One hand's itching the other's missing 

I wish I was missing
Birthmarked my arms in vain out my mouth and down the drain 
Shooting bullets through my blood, the bullets barely missed my brain 
And fly for five days around my bedroom in a haze 

And then I'll crash straight in the ground 
I wish I was never ever here
And I don't know what's buried here 
(I think) I'm buried here and barely here

Raccoon eyed and skin whiter than heavens best fighter 
I'm thinking she needs me, well do you girl? I guess we'll see 
And I know she's perfect, a hostage in purple 
We'll tie up our arms with my cancer and your charm 

'Cause I'll never kiss a broken jaw 
Fist fight the light that bounces off my walls 
So when you come out fix another for me 
One leg's limping, the other's missing 

I wish I was missing
Dodging broken down satellites 
Mending my beaten up jaw line 
Last night I stayed on call all night 

And I watched her die three times tonight