Lilac In Bloom

It's so
Hard to live
With the things I hold inside
A child I was when I
Lost my pride
I need some fucking help
I try so hard to fail
Like a tree with no room
I find it hard to bloom
An efflorescent state
Where I can feel okay
There's too much on my plate
Am I just tempting fate?
And I just want to bloom too
Just like the rest of you
And trust me I'm trying to grow out of gloom
But the shadow in me still looms
So I will commune with the moon
Just to be told I ruined my youth
I need some fucking help
I try so hard to fail
Like a tree with no room
I find it hard to bloom
An efflorescent state
Where I can feel okay
There's too much on my plate
Am I just tempting fate?