Why I Am Alive

Sometimes I don't wanna try
I can't seem to smile
I can't seem to cry
What is the point when I don't wanna open my eyes?

Sorry for feeling this way
A burden, I know, but what else can I say?
I'd rather you leave me
You know that you don't have to stay

I want to give up, let go of these chains
Please leave me in peace and end this pain
But I cannot be so selfish and flee
Because

I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pain's gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand what you all see in me
But you love me
And I love you

Oh, I've had enough
I want to be done
The hurt in my heart cannot be healed
But I have to try
I can't say goodbye
Because

I may hate myself
But I still love you
Even if my pain's gone
It'll only pass on back to you
I don't understand what you all see in me
But you love me
And I love you

Maybe one day
I'll love me too