Too Tough Too Long

I wake up with a war in my chest
Another day, another battle, no rest
Smilin' in the mirror like I'm not a mess
But I'm dyin' inside with this weight on my neck

People say, "Stay strong," but fuck that line
I've been strong for years, barely alive
They don't see the nights I scream in silence
Or the way my mind turns peace to violence

Tired of fakin' it, tired of the fight
Every damn day feels like a war, just to survive
It's not that I'm weak, it's I'm worn the fuck out
And nobody hears when I'm cryin' out loud

I ain't givin' up, 'cause I'm fragile or soft
I've been too fuckin' tough, now I'm feelin' lost
This ain't weakness, it's a scream from the soul
I'm breakin' down after carryin' the load

So don't you dare say it's all in my head
When I'm fightin' like hell just to stay out of bed
This pain is real, this life is rough
And I'm tired as fuck from bein' too tough

It's hard to breathe when the dark never lifts
Fake smiles, fake laughs, just counterfeit, shit
I wear my trauma like a second skin
While they tell me to pray or just think positive

But you can't fix a brain that's waged a war
Or silence demons with a goddamn chore
I'm still here, but I don't know why
Some nights, I just wanna say goodbye

Not lookin' for pity, just need you to see
This monster inside has been fuckin' with me
Don't judge my scars, don't downplay my cries
'Cause I've walked through hell, just to stay alive

I ain't givin' up, 'cause I'm fragile or soft
I've been too fuckin' tough, now I'm feelin' lost (feelin' lost)
This ain't weakness, it's a scream from the soul
I'm breakin' down after carryin' the load

So don't you dare say it's all in my head
When I'm fightin' like hell just to stay out of bed
This pain is real, this life is rough
And I'm tired as fuck from bein' too tough

So if you feel me, if you're hangin' by a thread
Know you're not alone in this fucked-up head
We ain't broken, just bruised from the fight
Still breathin', still bleedin', still holdin' on tight

I ain't givin' up, 'cause I'm fragile or soft
I've been too fuckin' tough, now I'm feelin' lost
This ain't weakness, it's a scream from the soul
I'm breakin' down after carryin' the load
But I'll rise again, no matter how rough
'Cause even the tired can still be tough