Ataraxia

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Do not judge me for my past
For my lapsed humanity
Do not judge me
I'm beyond criticism
I am my life and nothing else
I decided to step aside and drop out of the race
Call it cowardice, call it ataraxia
Call it different priorities
Do not judge me after all these years
I chose to walk a different path
Or the path chose me...
 
I used to sing and dance
I used to divide and conquer
Now I wipe old people's arses
For a tip and a smile
cnd I watch them dying
Slowly, agonising
Choking to death with their eyes wide open
cnd I dress them in their old people's clothes
Close their eyelids
Compose their limbs
cnd move on
To the next dirty arse...
 
When all my memories will fade away
cnd my acts of meek submission and gentle rebellion will sink
Into a bottomless pit
When words will fail me and my body will hold me captive
I will need you to turn out the light
When the music's over
Turn out the light