Social Anxiety

Thank you to everybody who talked to me tonight
I was alone at a show, I was hoping that I might
Run into somebody that I know who'd wanna talk to me
Maybe they would even welcome me into their conversation
I was lucky, I was lucky, in the end I found some friends
They asked me about me and I asked them about them

I had fun
I had fun
I am happy
That I went out

I almost stayed at home I think that I'd have liked that too
Taken two puffs of something I'm allowed and played guitar till I lose
Sight of all the ways I'm comfortable, that nothing can hurt me here
I am home, I am safe as long as I don't disappear
Into worrying about myself and hoping that I don't die
I'll be hoping that I don't die until the day that I die

but I have fun
I have fun
I'm not dying
I'm pretty sure

Either way I need to get in bed and go to sleep
Even though it's only 2 am and I'm not even tired
I don't need to wake up anyways at any specific time
My phone isn't going anywhere
And I'm afraid of dying

So I pretend
I pretend
I pretend
That I'm not tired
When I have fun
I have fun
And I pretend
That I'm not tired