Not Ready To Let Go

How many days does it take to repair to a heart
How many ways can I say that I've still got scars
I've never known where to go when I fall apart 
But all of the pain used to fade in your arms

cll these memories 
cll this history 
Turning upside down 

If you're going home and 
I can't leave with you 
What do I do now? 

I'm not
Ready to let go
I'm not
Ready to let go of you
Even though I have to

Wish we could stay in the shade of a different life 
Wish I could say that the ache would erase with time 
You're still the dream that I see when I close my eyes 
It's the end of the road but the hope's still alive