Want

I wanna know how it will end
I wanna be sure of what it will cost
I wanna strangle the stars for all they promised me
I want you to call me on your drug phone
I wanna keep you alive so there is always the possibility of murder later

I wanna be there when you learn the cost of desire
I want you to understand that my malevolence is just a way to win
I want the name of the ruiner
I want matches in case I have to suddenly burn
I want you to know that being kind is overrated
I wanna write my secret across your sky
I wanna watch you lose control
I wanna watch you lose

I wanna know exactly what it's going to take
I wanna see you insert yourself into glory
I want your touches to scar me so I'll know where you've been
I want you to watch when I go down in flames
I want a list of atrocities (done in your name)
I wanna reach my hand into the dark and feel what reaches back

I wanna remember when my nightmares were clearer
I wanna be there when your hot black rage rips wide open
I wanna taste my own kind
I wanna be wrapped in cold wet sheets to see if it's different on this side

I want you to come on strong
I wanna leave you out in the cold
I want the exact same thing, but different
I want some soft drugs, some soft, soft drugs

I wanna throw you
I want you to know I know
I wanna know if you read me

I wanna swing with my eyes shut and see what I hit
I wanna know just how much you hate me so I can predict what you'll do
I want you to know the wounds are self-inflicted
I want a controlling interest
I wanna be somewhere beautiful when I die
I wanna be your secret hater
I wanna stop destroying you, but I can't
And I want and I want and I want and I will always be hungry

And I want
And I want
And I want