Dismal

3 days and 4 nights awake 
I don't know how much more I can take
As I lay astray, inside my head 
Waiting for my last breath  
I hope you know, I'm miserable 
I've never, felt so cold 
It's like breathing knives 
It's just like swallowing nails 

Breathing knives
Swallowing nails

Once again in love 
With the feeling of 
Being numb 
Everything is fucked up 
Can't overcome
The cravings for the poison 
Now matter how much 
There is never enough 

I can't overcome
Cravings for the poison 
No matter how much 
There is never enough

4 days and 5 nights awake 
I can't keep my thoughts straight 
Cant measure the pressure, about to break 
Take more what difference does it make 

Need an escape 
Take me away 
I love the pain  
Coursing through my veins 
Don't hesitate 
The longer you wait 
The more time it takes 
To forget everything 

Brain dead 
Wasted 
Dismal 
Lifeless 

This is not who I am 
This is not who I want to be 

When I look in my eyes I see
Nothing looking back at me 
All this time how did I not see 
I manifested my misery 

All I can do 
Is rebuild the foundation 
Abandoning my life 
Is my only salvation 

Brain dead 
Wasted
Dismal 
Lifeless