Isolation

Time to time 
I reminisce and I realize
I have felt this way for my entire life 
Crawling, falling, it's too late 
This is my fate 
All compassion is
Just skin deep 

Isolated existence 
No matter how close there's distance 
This isn't what I envisioned 
Prison built from my decisions 
I tried and I cannot escape 
Can't throw memories away 
They replay in my dreams
Twisted, tortured mind of mine 
Didn't happen overnight 
It was molded over time

I found my face 
Back in my hands 
Begging for a 
Chance again 

If my mind was a house 
I would paint the windows black 
No one can see inside 
I have too much to hide 

If my heart is my home 
I will lock every door 
You can't trust anyone anymore