Levitation

(Have you ever had a dream about someone
And wondered if they were dreaming about you too?)

I see you in a fever dream
Have you been thinking of me?
Or is your apparition just a symptom of my
Chemical Condition?

My brain's been caving in
I'm passing out during conversations
Can't recall the words
That tie my thoughts to sentences

And does it feed my ego?
To be wanted
When all I really want is
To shiver alone

Grown insecure
I need validation

I used to dwell on
Dwell on it

When I would see you
In a fever dream

You dissipated in
To the smell of smoke
That stained all my clothing

Do you still dwell on
Dwell on me too?

(Dwell on)
(Dwell on)

I only find respite
Confiding in my vices
And sulking in their wreckage

Self inflicted consequence
I want to feel clean
And bleach out my memory

(You stained me)

When every new tattoo
Heals in to skin
That'll never be touched by you

I used to dwell on
Dwell on it

When I would see you
In a fever dream

You dissipated in
To the smell of smoke
That stained all my clothing

Do you still dwell on
Dwell on me too?

I gaslit
Like you did

Seeing red you're
Absent but you still
Fuck with my head
You still
Fuck with my head

Seeing red you're
Absent but you still
Fuck with my head
You still
Fuck with my head

And I distilled your apparition
In to the callouses on my hands

But I still

Dwell on
Dwell on it

When I would see you
In a fever dream

You dissipated in
To the smell of smoke
That stained all my clothing

Do you still dwell on
Dwell on me too?

Do you still dwell on me

You were only a fever dream

(They're not)