Eighteen

I was eighteen, living in a daydream
I always thought I'd have it all my way
Couldn't change me, nobody could make me
Be somebody I don't wanna be
And the times can't change me
Won't become a dull boy, all work no play
I was eighteen, now I'd probably hate me
I didn't think I'd see 28

I've been going back in time on lockdown
I remember mama cried when I dropped out
And the look in dad's eyes when I got locked up
Just another memory that I blocked out

But you can't be everything to everyone all of the time
So sick of spending every day alone inside my mind

I was eighteen, living in a daydream
I always thought I'd have it all my way
Couldn't change me, nobody could make me
Be somebody I don't wanna be
And the times can't change me
Won't become a dull boy, all work no play
I was eighteen, now I'd probably hate me
I didn't think I'd see 28

So what do you expect of me?
I've gotta be myself
I thought the drugs would be the death of me
I put myself through hell
I always thought I knew what's best for me
But that's a story only time will tell
So what do you expect of me?
I never let it get to me