What Does My Heart Say
Rubén J. Carbajal, John Cardoza, Mili Diaz, Cailen Fu, And Eric Peters
4:32I've never had a real job before 'Cause I've never been on my own before All I know is that rent is expensive, extensive and endless I gotta be relentless to get this job Hopin' a friend's reference helps my odds 'Cause when I see the checklist of requisites I got next to no experience I found ten new venues lined up Hopin' that I wind up signed up waiting tables Or maybe make cash bartending, watch my spending Then maybe I'll be stable Pretending I'm packed with skills When back at home I'll be stacked with bills If I don't pay rent what are they gonna say? Is today my lucky day? Guess not, 'cause they're sayin' "No! No!" Everywhere that I apply they tell me "No! No!" Nobody hires me, no one's helping Wonder how I'll pay rent, wonder how the days went by so fast My dad must have worked real hard for us to last That's one thing that I Know, know, know One thing that I Know, know, know Tryna be the voice of reason Tryin' to appease him, he's in pure denial Tryna understand his views, walk in his shoes But the truth is I don't last a mile At night I'm on the phone Tryna let him know he's not alone He barely answers even if there's a chance I could help him advance I'm met with the loudest "No! No!" Every time I try to call he tells me "No! No!" Everything's a fight and it's not healthy Wonder how I'll pay rent, wonder how the days went by so fast I'd give everything so he'd come home at last I need him to Know, know, know I need him to Know, know, know (I try) Lookin' for more jobs at night (I try) Showin' him my softer side (I try) Holdin' onto home 'cause I know That the world doesn't care how I feel, how I cope, how (I try) Giving him the space he needs (I try) Every single place I see (I try) Thinking of the dream, how I can't lose steam How we used to be a team But I never had a real job before And I've never been on my own before All I know is that rent is expensive I've gotta be relentless Gotta be relentless "No! No!" Everywhere that I apply they tell me "No! No!" We keep fighting, we keep yelling Wonder how I'll pay rent, wonder how the days went by so fast I'd give everything to make this moment pass That's one thing that I (Know, know) One thing that I, one thing that I (Know, know) (Know, know) One thing that I, one thing that I (Know, know) (Know, know) One thing that I, one thing that I (Know, know) Oh, oh, oh